cece_girlx

sitting here with april & butterfield watching shaun of the dead.

milo passed away tonight.
so I left work early.

it was so upsetting.
I miss him so much already.
going to Ocala tomorrow probably.

good day. kind of.
(:

That Barack Obama will be our next president.





Although, some of you may not agree with my Candidate of choice, please, go there and vote, anyway.


(:

I don't think I'll have much to write about.

things are going well, though.
well, besides being broke, like always.

but, I'm working more, which is good.


(:
Halloween Horror Nights was okay.
I had fun.
But the theme last year, nothing beats that!
hah.


well, nothing much else to say.
Having a Halloween party, hope that goes well!

:D

I wrote this story for my Creative Writing class.

I want feedback! (:

A Beautiful Life                                                            

    I jumped onto my bed and danced in my underwear, to the music. The sound of Jonny's
voice is what made me love Emarosa so much. My mom came in the room and turned down
the stereo. I sulked as I fell to my knees. "Get ready for school." Mom always ruined my fun.
She left my room and I grabbed the remote and turned "I Set It Off Like Napalm" back up.

    A minute later, I threw my pants on and grabbed my bag. I had just enough time to
slip my converses on and drift out the door. I walked to the bus stop to meet my best friend.
He was a tall, lanky boy with hair that changed all the time. "Rache, I am so glad to see you this
morning." He smiled at me.

    I always thought Zac was so cute, but never in a crush sort of way. I tried hooking him
up with my girl friends all the time, but they never seemed to work out. The bus pulled up and
it made me think about how happy I was for it to be my senior year. Zac and I sat in the last
seat on the left. "So when's your dad going to be done fixing your car?" I asked Zac.

    "He's almost done. I should have it by Wednesday." That statement excited me because
I loved riding to school in his 98' Honda Civic. We continued talking on our way to school. As
we arrived at school, I jumped out of my seat. Zac laughed at me because I must have looked
so eager to be at school. I just wanted to see James.

    I weeded through people to get off the bus faster. I walked to the door and went inside
the hallway. I looked toward my locked and who was standing there, but James! His bright blue
eyes gave me goosebumps when I looked into them.

    Next to him, a skinny blonde stood up, after getting books out of her bottom locker.
James took the blonde's books from her and walked away with her. I opened my locker and
threw my bag inside. I took out my English book. I felt a tap on my shoulder. "Huh?" I said
surprised. Zac chuckled at me.

    "You're a trip, girl." I was furious at this point. Not happy at all.

    "You didn't SEE James walking with that skinny blonde bitch?" Zac shrugged his
shoulders. "Whatever," I said as I turned to the stairs. My feet were heavy as I stormed
off to my classroom.

    Mrs. Stanford's class was so fucking boring. I hated her aged voice. The rest of
the school day went by very fast and I was glad to be home. I threw my bag on the bed
and slipped my shoes off. The phone rang and I didn't feel like picking it up; but, I did.
"Hello?"

    "Hey girl," Zac said to me through the phone.

    "Hey Zac."

    "So Rache, I was thinking we should go to- excuse me." I heart him coughing on the
other end. It was like no cough I've heard before. It didn't sound too healthy. "Are you okay,
dude?" Zac continued to hack a lung while I sat there listening. "Do you need me to come over?"

    "S- sorry. I'm gonna go." The phone clicked in my ear. I hope he's okay. He's my best
and only true friend. Hours passed as I did my homework.
   
    I woke up, drooling on my Math book and looked at the clock. It was 5:25 AM. I
decided to stay awake since I had to usually get up at six. I went to my computer and checked
my Myspace. I had absolutely nothing new.

    My morning went by quite fast and before I knew it, I was at school. The day went by
slow, but I was happy to see my best friend. Zac is what kept me going everyday. He and I sat
down at the lunch table and talked a bit. No one usually sat by us because they thought we were
weird and all. "Rache, I have something I really need to tell you. It has been bugging at me for
years now." I looked at Zac and my eyebrows bent.

    "Well, what is it, Zac?" I pondered what he was about to reveal to me. My forehead
soaked with sweat.

    "Rachel, I know you probably are going to be weirded out, and I'm sure you might not
want to be friends after this. Okay, here goes. I'm," he paused. "I'm gay."

    "WHAT?" I shouted at him. I jumped out of my chair and threw my hands up. "How could
you keep something so important from me, Zac?" I walked away. I decided to ignore Zac the rest
of the day. I even sat in the front of the bus that afternoon. It's not the fact that he is gay. I'm mad
that he didn't tell me something like that from the start. I was supposed to be his best friend. He
could tell me anything and I would never judge him.

    I got home and did my homework straight away to keep my mind off things. Afterward, I
took an afternoon nap. My mom woke me around seven for dinner. At the table, I could hardly eat.
My mom asked me what was wrong and I told her that I was just worried about my grade. The phone
rang as I played with my green beans.

    My mom stood up and answered it. "Rachel," she called to me. She walked into my view.
"There's a problem, Zac is in the hospital." My eyes opened all the way and I shot out of my chair.
I told my mom to drive me up there right away. We got in the car without another word and headed
to the hospital.

    When we got to the hospital, we asked the receptionist which room Zac was in. I was soaked
in sweat all over my whole body. My hands were shaking. We walked to his room and I rushed to his side.
"Zac," I said as I grabbed his hand. "Zac, I am so so sorry about today. I love you. Please be okay." I
was so panicked that tears fell to my face.

    "Rachel, it's okay." He coughed very violently. His voice had turned very light. "Rache,"

    "Yeah?"

    "I," his coughs grew stronger. "I have AIDS." He continued to cough and shake. His hand turned
very cold. The tears coming from my eyes grew stronger and stronger. They fell down my face really hard.
I sniffled and cried more than I ever have in my life. Zac's hand felt even colder by now.

    "Zac," I said as I sniffled. "Are you going to be okay?" I couldn't even keep my eyes open. The
water streaming from my eyes was everywhere. He coughed a couple more times. I tried to open
my eyes and I looked up at him. "Zac?" He couldn't do anything but cough as his body lay cold.
He squeezed my hand tighter and with one last cough, his body went limp. I lost my best friend.

Life just gets worse & worse.


I broke it off with him.
I do need time to myself.

I really do.
This is it.

I am glad that Kayla, Nikki & I are hanging more.
I really love them lots.

Spring Hill on Friday *dances*


I am excited.
But, I just wanted to put that out there, I love you guys!
bye.